Terimakasih 2014!!!

2014 telah membawaku kepada kenangan manis yang dapat membuatku merasa teristimewa. Walaupun itu diluar harapan, namun yakinlah bahwa kenangan itu akan tersimpan rapi dalam hatiku.

2014 juga telah menyadarkanku akan arti banyak hal di dunia ini. Tentang banyak hal yang sulit aku pahami sebelumnya, bahkan sebagai seseorang yang beranjak dewasa sekalipun. Inilah yang membuatku belajar dan ingin selalu menjadi yang lebih baik dari yang sebelumnya.

Tahun 2014, tahun yang sulit diungkapkan. Terlalu penuh dengan air mata kebahagiaan maupun kesedihan. Hanya kata terimakasih lah yang dapat terucap. Terimakasih 2014 yang telah memberikanku segala pengalaman tak terduga yang mungkin belum pernah aku dapatkan di tahun sebelumnya. Dan terimakasih pula untuk kesempatan yang telah Dia berikan untukku menjalani kehidupan di tahun 2014 ini. Tanpa-Nya, mungkin aku takkan mampu bertahan hidup di dalam kehidupan yang serba kejam ini.

Selamat datang tahun 2015. Akan kututup tahun ini dengan senyuman yang kian terpampang hingga esok hari. Dengan semangat sederhana yang menggebu-gebu untuk mencapai sebuah impian terbesar dalam hidupku.

Ketulusan Hati

 

Apa sih artinya sebuah ketulusan itu?

Tulus dalam hal mencintai?

Tulus dalam hal menyayangi?

Banyak orang mengatakan bahwa tulus adalah menerima apa adanya. Namun bagiku, apa adanya tidak mewakili seseorang yang berlaku tulus. Menerima apa adanya terkadang bersifat conditional banget. Keadaan lah yang membuat seseorang mau tidak mau menerima apa adanya padahal dalam hati kecilnya ia berharap sesuatu yang mungkin tidak akan terwujud.

Menurutku, tulus adalah sebuah kata yang bermakna tanpa pamrih. Ya, orang yang tulus tak akan berharap sesuatu apapun untuk sebuah pembalasan atas apa yang ia lakukan. Namun sulit kutemui orang yang seperti itu. Justru orang-orang selalu menanyakan apa hasil yang didapat selama apa yang ia lakukan. Jarang sekali seseorang tidak mengharapkan imbalan atas apa yang ia lakukan. Helooo ini bukan zaman yang serba gratis, buang air di WC umum aja bayar. Begitulah kalimat yang terucap tiap kali seseorang belum mendapatkan imbalan yang semestinya. Bahkan tak jarang pula orang berencana untuk melakukan sesuatu agar mendapatkan suatu timbal balik yang lebih. Sungguh sangatlah memprihatinkan moral manusia di dunia saat ini.

Kuakui, aku pun bukan seseorang yang tulus. Banyak bayang-bayang harapan yang selalu muncul ketika aku melakukan sesuatu untuk orang lain, dan segala pengandaian yang selalu kubuat. Mungkin itu yang membuat hati ini tak tenang karena selalu berpikiran bahwa sesuatu yang telah kulakukan selama ini akan sia-sia dan tiada yang bisa kudapat. Aku terlalu takut dengan harapan yang selalu tertanam akhirnya tidak tumbuh dan berbunga kenyataan. Aku terlalu takut apabila mentari terbenam dan tak menampakkan diri lagi ketika subuh menjelang. Aku juga terlalu takut bila saat itu tiba, aku belum berhasil membawanya berada dalam kebahagiaan.

mikro

Wajah baru, pengalaman baru. Aku tak pernah mengira aku akan menjadi salah satu bagian di keluarga ini. Mikrobiologi Pertanian UGM. Hal ini menjadi pemupus mimpiku sebagai seorang veteriner tapi di lain sisi aku bersyukur dianugerahi sebuah keluarga yang begitu istimewa. Walaupun kecil tapi aku merasa bahagia berada di sini. Dari sini aku mengukir semua mimpi baruku, meluapkan semangatku, menuangkan kasih sayangku, menuliskan kisah kehidupanku, dan menikmati kebersamaan yang tak pernah terlupakan.

No One

I just want you close
Where you can stay forever
You can be sure
That it will only get better

You and me together
Through the days and nights
I don't worry 'cause
Everything's going to be alright
People keep talking they can say what they like
But all i know is everything's going to be alright

No one, no one, no one
Can get in the way of what I'm feeling
No one, no one, no one
Can get in the way of what I feel for you, you, you
Can get in the way of what I feel for you

When the rain is pouring down
And my heart is hurting
You will always be around
This I know for certain

You and me together
Through the days and nights
I don't worry 'cause
Everything's going to be alright
People keep talking they can say what they like
But all i know is everything's going to be alright

No one, no one, no one
Can get in the way of what I'm feeling
No one, no one, no one
Can get in the way of what I feel for you, you, you
Can get in the way of what I feel

I know some people search the world
To find something like what we have
I know people will try, try to divide, something so real
So till the end of time I'm telling you there ain't no one

No one, no one
Can get in the way of what I'm feeling
No one, no one, no one
Can get in the way of what I feel for you

Impossible

I remember years ago

Someone told me I should take

Caution when it comes to love

I did, I did

And you were strong and I was not

My illusion, my mistakeI was careless, I forgot

I did

And now when all is done

There is nothing to say

You have gone and so effortlessly

You have won

You can go ahead tell them

Tell them all I know now

Shout it from the roof tops

Write it on the skyline

All we had is gone now

Tell them I was happy

And my heart is broken

All my scars are open

Tell them what I hoped would be

Impossible, impossible

Impossible, impossible

Falling out of love is hard

Falling for betrayal is worst

Broken trust and broken hearts

I know, I know

Thinking all you need is there

Building faith on love and words

Empty promises will wear

I know, I know

And now when all is gone

There is nothing to say

And if you're done with embarrassing me

On your own you can go ahead tell them

 

Tell them all I know now

Shout it from the roof tops

Write it on the skyline

All we had is gone now

Tell them I was happy

And my heart is broken

All my scars are open

Tell them what I hoped would be

Impossible, impossible

Impossible, impossible

Impossible, impossible

Impossible, impossible!

Ooh impossible (yeah yeah)

I remember years ago

Someone told me I should take

Caution when it comes to love

I did

Tell them all I know now

Shout it from the roof tops

Write it on the skyline

All we had is gone now

Tell them I was happy

And my heart is broken

All my scars are open

Tell them what I hoped would be

Impossible, impossible

Impossible, impossible

Impossible, impossible

Impossible, impossible

I remember years ago

Someone told me I should take

Caution when it comes to love

I did...

One and Only

You've been on my mind
I grow fonder every day,
Lose myself in time
Just thinking of your face
God only knows
Why it's taken me so long
To let my doubts go
You're the only one that I want

I don't know why I'm scared, I've been here before
Every feeling, every word, I've imagined it all,
You never know if you never try
To forgive your past and simply be mine

I dare you to let me be your, your one and only
Promise I'm worthy to hold in your arms
So come on and give me the chance
To prove that I'm the one who can
Walk that mile until the end starts

If I've been on your mind
You hang on every word I say
Lose yourself in time at the mention of my name
Will I ever know how it feels to hold you close?
And have you tell me whichever road I choose you'll go

I don't know why I'm scared 'cause I've been here before
Every feeling, every word, I've imagined it all,
You'll never know if you never try
To forgive your past and simply be mine

I dare you to let me be your, your one and only
I promise I'm worthy to hold in your arms
So come on and give me the chance
To prove that I'm the one who can
Walk that mile until the end starts

I know it ain't easy, giving up your heart
I Know it ain't easy, giving up your heart

(Nobody's perfect, trust me I've learned it)
I know it ain't easy, giving up your heart
(Nobody's perfect, trust me I've learned it)
I know it ain't easy, giving up your heart
(Nobody's perfect, trust me I've learned it)
I know it ain't easy, giving up your heart
(Nobody's perfect, trust me I've learned it)
I know it ain't easy, giving up your heart

So I dare you to let me be your, your one and only
I promise I'm worthy to hold in your arms
So come on and give me a chance
To prove that I'm the one who can
Walk that mile until the end starts
Come on and give me a chance
To prove that I'm the one who can
Walk that mile until the end starts. 

When I Was Your Man

Same bed, but it feels just a little bit bigger now
Our song on the radio, but it don't sound the same
When our friends talk about you all it does is just tear me down
Cause my heart breaks a little when I hear your name

It all just sounds like ooh, ooh, oooh, oooh
Mmm too young, too dumb to realize

That I should've bought you flowers and held your hand
Shoulda gave you all my hours when I had the chance
Take you to every party cause all you wanted to do was dance
Now my baby's dancing, but she's dancing with another man

My pride, my ego, my needs and my selfish ways
Caused a good strong woman like you to walk out my life
Now I'll never, never get to clean up the mess I made ooh
And that haunts me every time I close my eyes

It all just sounds like ooh, ooh, oooh, oooh 
Mmm too young, too dumb to realize

That I should've bought you flowers and held your hand
Shoulda gave you all my hours when I had the chance
Take you to every party cause all you wanted to do was dance           
Now my baby's dancing, but she's dancing with another man

Although it hurts I'll be the first to say that I was wrong
Oh, I know I'm probably much too late
To try and apologize for my mistakes
But I just want you to know

I hope he buys you flowers, I hope he holds your hand
Give you all his hours when he has the chance
Take you to every party cause I remember how much you love to dance        
Do all the things I should've done when I was your man
Do all the things I should've done when I was your man